flip flip flip flip through the photos in my computer...I found so many happy memories.
many happy memories, I wish I could turn back time...the past one & a half year after Charissa brought me to bible study one fine Thursday cuz I was bored & juz wanted to come & take a look at this mega church with special mid week services...&...

got to know Kim, who then knew me as "Charissa's friend"..how Daddy God put people in my life is totally amazing.I decided to come for Bible Study the following thursday alone, as Charissa was serving for choir...& Kim spot me in the que, as we were among the same tic batch in the que... she said, "hey next time you wanna come for BS, give me a call lor" so nice, & I exchanged numbers with her. The following day, she sms-ed me, "hey we've got Campus Service this Saturday, you wanna come? we can meet up & come together..." I was intending to go for it alone, & Daddy God knew, He juz gotta arrange someone to come with me so that I wouldn't feel so awkward as a new comer... I said, "okay, but I'll let you know again. I was intending to come anyways." (at that point of time, I was full of uncertainty, whether to switch church or not, transition was never easy, but Daddy God is faithful)
Sadly, after that day she seemed to m.i.a.
I miss this friend, she made so much difference although I met her only a few times @ BS & Sunday Services...

on Campus day itself... Kim didn't come but Aiwei spot me, & remembered my name...
called me from afar, at the level 6 overflow room where Campus Service is held...
"hey Linda", I would so shocked & surprised, if someone knew my name on my first visit to Campus... I know that you would feel that way too. Thus, I sat with Charissa's friends, who are the SIM care group members...
It was such a coincidence that on that week service, they announced the CLUSTER EVENT.

I was stuck between 2 clusters - Poly & Private/SIM/SMU Cluster.
The story is this. My good friend, Melanie's friend, Grace Tan, learnt that I was "trying on" NCC, whether to stay or not. & Grace Tan is from Poly Cluster (by then Melanie, have gone missing in action from church, I am still hoping today, that she'll come back la)
Alright, the next day I went for 2nd service -- & it was a surprise for me that Darlene was worship leading, cuz I didn't know that she was (hey, IT'S MY FIRST SUNDAY SERVICE IN NCC la, I was in another church all along) & Grace Tan started contacting me...
actually before that, she was already nudging me whether I wanna join her care group.
I told her wait first, cuz Charissa's friends wants me to join SIM care group...
LIKE HOW? Oh wells, Grace decided to introduce me to her care group leader, who was my 1st previous care group leader, Jonathan Liew, also the worship leader in Campus' band then.
(and I still remember, my first campus service was so memorable as Jonathan didn't know the lyrics to the song TELL THE WORLD..& Pastor wanted to sing it =X) He asked me if I was free to join them for the cluster event & he asked if I was friends with Charissa & the rest. I was quite surprised when he knew them & he actually saw me at campus, haha, being the blur new comer me, not noticing he was the worship leader on the stage. (& today I know, it is cuz of choir they know each other & JON LIEW HAS A GOOD EYE FOR NEW COMERS IN CAMPUS, that's what he told me!)

on Thursday BS, Nat asked me if I was gonna come for their cluster, SIM/SMU/PTE cluster event... it's also at east coast. WOAH by then it was getting quite hard to decide...but Jon kept following up on me, it was so hard to reject. The next day, the tpcg's amb, Sharm, sms-ed me & said that she got my number from Jon, asked if I wanna meet up with her to go to east coast park together. By then, I didn't have much of a choice, I joined the poly cluster. Ok, I had fun, was introduced to Coach Han -- who remembers names so well. I remember I kept forgetting so many people's names that time...I could only remember Esther (cuz she's also Charissa's friend), Sharm & Jon...thus the ice breaking game was a great challenge, cuz it was whacko, & I didn't know many people so I random called names. I still remember there was this stupid captain's ball game where a piece of raw chicken & papaya was the ball it was uber gruesome.
Poor Sharm, her shirt was so dirty cuz she was the captain...
Nightfall, we had praise & worship under the stars, & there was ministering, surprisingly. Coach Han started to call a few names & I didn't expect that he would call mine, cuz I was juz a new comer. Well to my amazement, he called, & prayed a perfect prayer over me. (& he said he still remember it today, he talked about it when he saw me)
I juz knew at that moment, uncertainties left me & I decided to stay on in New Creation Church.

Til today, Campus has changed it's name to Arrow.

well, my CNL & ECC friends are happy that I am happy where I am & surprisingly, there are some ECC people who actually came over to New Creation too. I saw Bro. Peter Ee last Sunday at the indoor stadium, & he was serving as well, he is in RSM too! But in Alpha team, same as Alex (ywa east cg member)...he told he has stepped down from ushering in ECC too. He was one of my fellow ushers in ECC then. Surprisingly, Sis Mary & family has come over to New Creation, cuz we were in the same lite group(their term of care group) & she seemed super ON. Little did I know that she has decided to come over to New Creation too. Soy Yi, my fellow christmas choir mate, is also in New Creation & so is Andrew & Nancy from the youth network in ECC, is now in Arrow - NYP Care Group.

I still have a long journey ahead of me.
Ushering, Youth & Performing Arts has always been my passion...

Usher - cuz I love smiling at grouchy people, watching their grouchy face turn into a smile makes a difference! & talking to people I don't know, making friends has always been a gift...
Somehow I always notice the ushers whenever I go to any church, guess it's hazard, again.
Youth - cuz I have this vibrant spirit where I juz love to be so ON & hyper about YOUTH.
Performing Arts - well, I love music loads. no wonder, it was juz so coincidental, when I liked the name Judith, it meant WOMAN OF PRAISE. & yup, I love praise & worship alot. I love to dance too, that's why I was involved in Campus Creative Unit's dance in 2006 for Men's & Women's meeting.

Well, if I do take a break from Arrow now, which minus youth. I am left with ushering. So should I spend a little bit more time on my performing arts after I stabilize my job too?
Nah probably not, I am gonna STUDY, STUDY, STUDY first.
prolly juz continue with my hip hop classes. x))

when it was
tpcg vs sim cg - i chose tpcg
choir vs ushering - i chose ushering
(i know in ncc it's quite impossible to join both, esp. when I am already an Arrow server too)
Somehow my choices always end up cool.

at times, it's hurting to realize you do not bear much significance to the people around you.
but what you give weight to matters...
as long as you/I know that Daddy God is all that matters,
& YOU/I MATTER TO HIM ALOT.
& He made it best, when I/you did nothing at all.
life is much more joyful & you'll see less grouchy faces coming for service.
but grace, grace.
the ushers make a difference (:
because ushers have anointed smiles that can turn a grouchy face into another smile.

as I was browsing through Julie's facebook.
I spot someone familliar in her cg photo.
It was Jasmine Liu Qiu Xia. I seriously wonder...
if it was her... I messaged her I am waiting for her reply tho...
Jasmine was a girl I met during the combined youth service with VFC & ECC.
Question, hmmm.. did she come over to NCC too?

& I found myself talkin' to someone I least expected to.
I mean, seriously... Daddy God works in different & funny ways too.
it's been few months now
& i'm really thankful i'm no longer that upset & emotional over that broken friendship.
because of the ones who have been a tremendous blessing in my life.
thanks so much for being with me during that period.
no matter how nonsensical, you bore with me...
all the stinking verbal vomit, I bet I was a hard nut to crack then.
Thanks for WAKING ME UP & PRECIOUS REMINDERS THAT TOUCH MY HEART.
Thanks for loving me for who I am as Daddy God does.

& I also thank Daddy God for PrisGan (Arrow Private Care Group)
& Qwen (Arrow JC Care Group/RSM-Echo) - the you & your aunty look like Pastor Lian look, yeah but you've been a great blessing since I got to know you at historymaker6ix camp, although I don't see you much at Arrow *lol* (:
you girls are much blessingzzz in my life!