I start to feel my passion for Arrow, juz burning out bit by bit...
I wonder why am I still putting up a false front...
Well, many people around me still think my passion & zeal for Arrow still stands.
I do not look forward to Arrow as much as I did when I was in Campus.
But well again, my serving attitude in Arrow is starting to slack...
I see the 'sucky serving attitude' the so unglam side of me coming out...
it's starting to show... I get so pissed off with fellow servers easily...
It feels like I juz don't wanna be around my fellow servers...
so I showed alot of negative attitude & unhappy face near them...
I kinda feel that I've really shown alot of unglam-ness, the bad side of me during Arrow Adventure Camp... The transition is already causing me so much of confusion, & there comes this girl who appeared in my life & ruined it all... Thank God I do not shun making friends still...

Proud to be an Arrow server?
I was. I could even go for so many different meetings & still be with glee.
In fact, I was excited almost every Arrow.
Somehow, it became first priority in my life...
I enjoyed every meeting & chance to fellowship with Arrow people.
A cg Yahoo! group admin - I was someone my 1st previous cgl, put alot of trust in... Sending out announcements on where to meet before Arrow Services/CGs/Bs(last time)/Sunday Service, updates in church etc etc.
Sharm, the cg ambs at that time, said I was a rare gem as new comers (when I was still new) nowadays not as zai as me...so regular...so zealous for Arrow (Campus, at that time)...
& still come for BS every week, plus sure to be seen on Sunday services...
(it's the ambs' duty to serve & follow up on new comers)
A cg attendance taker - I was someone my 2nd previous cgl put alot of trust in, knowing how I must submit it after every cg session & Arrow service...& not show it to any other cg member.
A cg befriender/Core member, one of them - I was still, someone my 2nd previous cgl put alot of trust in again... I had to take care of 1 irregular cg member, the cores were the ones our cgls call the "right hand men & women"
I was even serving in Team I.M. If you question me, was I tired? No.
Even if I was...I was satisfied...
Looking back, I really thank Daddy God for giving me the strength...
I really didn't realize I was doing so much...
I really didn't know...until I look back now...
Well, you can say...serving out of rest.
Prolly, God has all along been multiplying my time...

I kinda question now...
am I serving out of rest in Arrow YWA?
The commitment is really low. it's so much lesser than students.
yet I feel so sian...
haiz...
question, should I take a break?

Daddy God...