flooded with boredom recently... I start to miss the Arrow students life more & more... my wonderful 19th & 20th birthday... with so many different people from different care groups...team I.M.-ers...beloveds...historymakers camps...laser quests...taboo-ing...mafia...tian xia wu di-ers...even the group of dota clan from tp care group... the dota brothers... I am filled with so many different people..different culture... transition is indeed a pain...which I still can't get over...I really didn't expect it's a slow moving process & it sucks...

I miss going for 4th service with the buncha Arrow students people...coming so early juz to get tics & head to play games/lunch...Serving or not serving, wherever I am, Xiaohui / Amy never fails to give me a call...or rather, few times, even on my way to debrief (esp for 3rd + 4ths) Xiaohui would say, "hey dear give me a call after you're done" ... I didn't expect the change to be so great after moving up to YWA... It's like I don't bother about Sundays as much as before... (well, Linda, going to church is for God, but .. WHAT'S WRONG OR WHAT'S RIGHT WITH ME?!)

The feeling's juz not right...Sundays seem to bore me alot...ever since transition. So much so I don't even bother to que for tickets like before... rather isolate myself...very soon I'll make myself into a busy bee. Cuz I used to keep my Sundays free for fellowship & church... but looks like it's so pointless now..
Sunday seem like any normal day now...it used to excite me so much...Saturday Arrow services, at YWA the culture is juz kinda different.

I juz can't fit in...no matter hoiw... I rather be by myself...
Sometimes I juz don't know even know where are my own cg people...Feel quite fed up. GOD, IS IT WRONG TO FEEL THIS WAY? haiz

I remember the celebrating of birthdays at Sky Garden & even poly cluster flooding it for blind mice, plus MAFIA @ starbucks...it's always before 4th service that we'll find most of the poly care groups planted around Mcds.And after 4th service the poly cluster would flood the marina square foodcourt...
I.M. team babes were a lovely group to be with as well..The weekday brainstorming sessions & props preparations was juz something to look forward to...
Honestly, I rather look forward to a serving Sunday than a non serving Sunday...somehow the sense of satisfaction on a serving Sunday is there...
I really can't tell, what's wrong or what's right with me? I feel as if a non serving
Sunday is a resting day yet it becomes like a day I dwell on missing the fellowship with my buncha Arrow people...
Therefore I've been thinking of making activities on Sundays... But I really can't figure out what to do... I juz felt like making it busy...
I receive the Word during service, but after service I walk around Suntec...& think of the old care group people =\
WHAT'S WRONG OR WHAT'S RIGHT WITH ME?
I DON'T KNOW.

3 days to Sunday now...
& blahx

LOOK FORWARD TO HILLSONG UNITED THE ZONE YOUTH CONCERT 08.

IT WILL BE GOOD.

cheer up babe! JESUS LOVES YOU!