1) GO BACK INTO USHERING (any team, Lord)
2) BE DEBT FREE
3) HAVE LOTSA FAVOR WITH PEOPLE.

DEKTOS :

delight, favor, acceptance

DELIGHT YOURSELF IN THE LORD AND HE WILL GIVE YOU THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART!

Amen! Amen! Amen! Amen! Amen!

Today, I had an outbreak again... I cannot deny that that memory... was triggered for awhile when I couldn't find anyone... my gifts distribution... I came at 3.15pm only to realize that I came in vain... I felt so neglected I started tearing... It was then when Amy discovered me...started questioning and asked why was I sitting on the floor crying...I just gently shook my head... my hand had some marks that I did out of anger... Amy was staring in that direction for awhile... asked if I was alone for service and started talking about the care group thing again. Out of concern, she asked me to join Arrow Private Care Group... I guess she really cares... still...
But I told her I'll think about it... okay...Everytime I tell them, I will think about it, I get bugged and bugged and bugged and bugged for reasons!!! HOW ANNOYING LA.

But no RSM, no Arrow... sorry to say this...
BACK TO MINISTRY NOW THOUGH.
I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO 17 JANUARY 2009, Performing Arts Ministry Orientation. Meet Julina Halim, Stephanie Lum, Amanda Tan & ALL THE OTHER SERVERS! I hope Alvin Elijah, Chris Goh & Jean Lee will be there!!! I'm also waiting for Community Services projects to come.
SIGNED UP FOR IT! HALLELUJAH! Woot, I signed up for Community Services Ministry with MALA of RSM Echo!!! KHAI LENG WILL BE THE ONE CONTACTING ME. SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE WILL AND I AM UBER EXCITED!!! Yes, I just hope that they have trips to PRISONS as well.... CHC community services visits CHANGI PRISON... man.. ever since I went to that Children's Home, I am so attracted to Community Services... even if it was elderly people man... at least they are people who are willing to tell you stuff...

I can't fight the fact that I struggle with loneliness almost every Sunday... pre-service syndromes... and I try my best not to think about what happened that made me a loner today...
I've got nobody to tell, I feel horrible... leaders, jealousy... because it felt really terrible today... each time I think about what happened, I feel my head bursting and I will feel suicidal... I still struggle with it... Just that it wasn't as bad as before the prayer was made at Women's Meeting...

AHHH But something good to think about...

SERENE (David Lim's wife + Qwen's Aunt) said I gotta sweeeeeeeeet face ^^ while she was ushering at Level 4 Overflow Room.

I'm starting to keep to myself again...

Jesus I need You...Waiting for the Dektos year ahead... D:

Labels: 2009