I was once despised by my own church leaders because of my *family background...
not all the church leaders... but a number of them...
that unfair treatment...that sadness... which I really do not want it to stay in my heart...
Don't wanna be stuck in the past... which they seem to be making me stay....
I'm still waiting... for that new life to unleash... the breakthrough to happen...
the invincible side of me... in where no higher authority can intimidate me...
cuz even the higher authority is not greater than Jesus... not even the ones at home...
neither at church nor home...
the ones in higher authority are still in the flesh, and human will err no matter what...

for God Helps The Helpless

Psalm 63:7
Because You have been my help, therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.

[[If you think about it, a whole lot of our troubles are of our own making. But it is when we deserve the punishment and not the blessing that we can receive grace — the undeserved favor and unmerited help of God!

When we stop trying to be deserving of God’s help, we find God more than willing to be our Savior. But when we continue to try to work things out, we are trying to be our own saviors. God will say, “Save yourself because I can’t help you when you don’t need My help.”]] - excerpt from New Creation Church Daily Devotionals, The One Thing - 8 Feb 2009...

still waiting for my breakthrough.

church. family. pressing on.

*family background - not yet saved.